The Anarchic Consort Novel - Chapter 1049
Chapter 1049: I Regretted It
Lan Ya was stunned again, as she became a little nervous.
Helian Wei Wei asked rhetorically in a calm manner, “If she has been here before, why did you not see her?”
All of a sudden, Chen Zhendong was speechless. Even he did not know why he felt her presence, despite being unable to see her.
“Actually, Mr. Chen, you do not need to waste time on Lan Ya.” Helian Wei Wei saw him in deep contemplation and laughed a little. Then, she continued saying, “I’ve heard from Lan Ya and read the news that you were preparing to pursue someone else. If that’s the case, why don’t you two break up in peace?”
Chen Zhendong did not say anything.
Actually, Lan Ya knew what he was thinking clearly.
He’s probably still worried.
After all, he chased me out of his house simply because that person asked him if he wanted to break up with her.
It was raining heavily that day. It felt extremely cold when the pouring raindrops fell on her body.
However, she did not cry.
On the second day, she had a fever and her temperature reached 39°C. Sadly, she was curled up tightly in her blanket and receiving an intravenous drip in the hospital alone.
She could see them happily walking together in white robes through the window.
After mulling it over, she seriously considered separating from him since then.
After she had recovered and calmed down, she planned to discuss it with him. Alas, she was involved in an accident as she was too upset to accept their impending breakup.
He was probably worried that she would harm the relationship between him and Xiao Ziqiu. After all, she only managed to be in a relationship with him by using an immoral method.
To him, she had already become someone who would wreck other people’s relationships for her own benefit.
Actually, he did not understand her at all.
She may lower her ego for love, but she would never damage anyone’s relationship.
From the very beginning, she had said that if he found someone that he loved, she would let him go.
However, he did give her any trust at all.
This clearly indicated how pathetic she had been living for the past three years.
Lan Ya did not know why she was crying.
Maybe the grievances had accumulated until a certain degree after all these years.
She simply could not take it anymore.
Throughout the past three years, she sacrificed her self-esteem in exchange for the time to be by his side.
This was because she was too afraid of losing him.
She thought that she would receive something in return, even if it was a hint of gratitude from him.
Alas, all she ultimately gained was hatred and her almost depleted love.
No one knows how terrible she felt, when she was huddled up in the hospital and staring blankly at the penicillin flowing into her veins, with no one by her side.
It felt so painful, as if her heart was violently stabbed and all her organs had been hollowed out.
If she was given the chance to choose again, she would not express her affection like that again. She would have distanced herself from him instantly when she realized her unreciprocated feelings.
Unfortunately, there was no turning back after making regretful choices.
Lan Ya was somehow relieved that God arranged this accident for her.
Without this accident, she would never know how insignificant and negligible she was in his heart.
He never liked taking photos.
However, there was a group photo from his school days between the pages in his book.
There were a lot of people in the photo, including Xiao Ziqiu, although she stood quite far away from him.
At that time, the crisis had not fallen on the Chen Family.
He even hugged her shoulder to display their camaraderie in the graduation photo.
Am I stupid?
I didn’t even realize that he might already have a crush at that time.
I was the heinous one. If it weren’t for the contract, maybe the two of them would’ve been together.
In the beginning, I was very jealous of Xiao Ziqiu. After all, that woman has everything that I don’t.
She is gentle, considerate, and coquettish.
Moreover, she’s younger than Chen Zhendong.
Most importantly, when Chen Zhendong is with Xiao Ziqiu, his eyes and eyebrows would curve blissfully.
That kind of gentleness is starkly different from when he is with me.
After thinking it over, even when we were making love, he would be extremely aggressive.
I dared not make him angry because this relationship was destined to be unequal from the start.
If it was Xiao Ziqiu, maybe he would be much more patient.
After seeing the photo, a realization suddenly dawned on her.
She wanted to repay him, no matter how.
However, at that moment, she found out she could not leave the house. Initially, she wanted to dial her brother’s phone. However, curiously, she discovered that she could only pick up calls but she could not call anyone using the phone.
She had no choice and could only try to contact her family members using the internet, but to no avail.
When she was browsing a Taobao shop and talked to Helian Wei Wei, she realized that she had become a wisp of soul.
The most pathetic thing was that she could not leave the place because of her obsession, even in this state.
“I regretted it.”
Lan Ya, who would never say these words, suddenly broke into a peal of laughter as tears cascaded down her cheeks.”
Helian Wei Wei looked at Lan Ya who was behind her and turned her head again to look at Chen Zhendong. “Mr. Chen, have you ever thought that Lan Ya would regret it one day?”
Chen Zhendong’s eyes were full of shock as he repeated, “Regret?”
“That’s right.” Helian Wei Wei’s eyes were clear as she added, “She personally told me that she regretted it. She regretted being with you in the past. If she’s given the chance to choose again, she will still give all her savings to you but she will choose to go overseas immediately. She will accomplish her responsibility as a friend, but she will not pour all her heart on you. She will merely remain as a childhood friend. In that way, if the two of you meet again, both of you will be with someone you like.”
“Just like how you two were like when you were young, she said that she’s taller than you, so she was protective of you. Every time in school, she would defend you when the older students tried to bully you. Her protectiveness has never changed regardless of age. You shouldn’t assume that she’s changed completely. This time, she has really stepped back sufficiently. If you two meet in the future, she will still treat you as a younger brother. Whether you believe it or not, it’s no longer important to her.”
As he listened to her, Chen Zhendong suddenly grew weak in the knees and had to support himself with the wall beside him.
They had countless fights in the past three years.
When he was unhappy, bitterness would overcome him even when he saw her standing beside him.
Yes, I’m very clear about it, she wouldn’t tolerate me if we didn’t grow up together.
I knew her better than anyone else in the world. She would always confuse her feelings in a relationship.
To be honest, she never liked being intimate with me.
If she really loved me, why would she hate being intimate with me?
However, that’s fine, since I like girls that aren’t like her.
We could’ve stayed together for a long time as a family.
I thought that she would stand by my side and console me when I’m at my lowest.
Laughably, she did give me what I wished for the most, but not in the way that I wanted…