My Lovely Wife is a Forensic Doctor - Chapter 89
Chapter 89 To Walk on the Path of No Return
She did not expect Yan Xiaobing to act like this. Mu Yu was terrified when she knew that he was going to do something to her. She flailed her legs around while struggling being muffled.
“Bing, what are you doing? Don’t be rude to Miss Mu!”
Yan Xiaobing threw Mu Yu onto the balcony. Then, he rushed back into the house toward Mrs. Yan and waved his hands anxiously as he cried out, “Mother, what happened to your eyes?”
“Bing, my son!”
“Mother, I am here!” Yan Xiaobing quickly grabbed his mother’s hands which were groping about in the air.
“My son, after waiting for so long, you have finally come to me.” Mrs. Yan touched her son’s hand and felt her way up his arms until she reached his face. Then, she wept bitterly. “I thought I would never see you again.”
He realized that his mother had bawled herself blind, and with a thud, he knelt in front of his mother before he slapped himself continuously as he cried, “I am an unfilial son. I am sorry for letting you down, Mother.”
At once, Mrs. Yan felt her son’s height reduced by a few feet, followed by some slapping sounds. She immediately knelt down with a tear-streaked face as she fumbled around and caught her son’s hands. She then shook her head repeatedly. “Although I never had an education, I still understand the responsibilities of a parent to educate their child. After your father passed away, I did not fulfill my responsibility to give you a good education. Hence, this is my fault, and I should bear all the consequences. That’s why I became blind, as this is my punishment.”
“No, mother, this isn’t your fault. This has nothing to do with you. Ever since what happened to our family, you persuaded me to let go of my resentment dozens of times, and you even advised me to be kind to others. This retribution shouldn’t be upon you. As my obsession runs deep, I can’t heed your advice to let go of my resentment and be kind to others.”
Yan Xiaobing suddenly burst into tears. “Mother, I had wanted to listen to your advice countless times. However, whenever it rains at night and I close my eyes, I would dream of Ying Zi, Xiao Bao and even Dad. They were struggling painfully in the abyss of suffering. Every time I wake up, my heart feels like it has been pierced by ten thousand arrows and the pain is unbearable.”
“Miss Mu.” Yan Xiaobing, who was still kneeling on the ground, suddenly turned around and looked at the balcony as he said mournfully, “Actually, it wasn’t my intention to pry open the manhole cover to injure other people. It’s just that I can’t control my emotions whenever it rains. I would be filled with hatred toward the people around me to the extent that I wish I could burn them to death so that they can experience the pain that my wife and son had suffered from. For these past few years, in order to control my emotions, every time it rains, I will torture myself and use the pain I feel to lessen my hatred toward them.”
“But later, he couldn’t control his behavior, and began to hurt people.” Mrs. Yan had a sorrowful look on her face, choking on her words as she interrupted. “Hence, every time it was about to rain, I would make him return to our home in the village and tie him up with a rope. When I saw him struggling and hitting his head everywhere, as a mother, my heart felt like it had been torn into pieces. I wish fervently that God can transfer all his sufferings onto my body. However, no matter how much I beg, God would not listen to me. Later, when he completely lost his mind, every time it rains, he would pry open the manhole covers as if he was possessed by a demon. He would feel excited whenever he hurt others. However, he would feel very guilty later and blame himself, then use an even more violent way to hurt himself. Only then can he rest peacefully. I knew all the things he did, but other than having a heartache and advising him, I couldn’t bear to expose his deeds. I am afraid that if the police get their hands on him, he would definitely be put to death. He is the only family member that I have. After all, Bing became who he is today because of me!”
“Mother! I don’t blame you. It was my fault! Mine!” Yan Xiaobing cried again as he kowtowed in front of his mother to show his remorse.
“Bing!” Mrs. Yan hugged her son as they cried bitterly together.
When Mu Yu—who was lying on the balcony while trembling from head to toe—heard their conversation, she understood Yan Xiaobing’s internal struggle and pain. She knew that he would never hurt her. Her fear was instantly replaced with sympathy for him. However, she did not understand why Yan Xiaobing had to resort to this method to meet his mother. Since her mouth was taped shut, she could not ask them. Hence, she could only accompany them silently as she wept, waiting for them to calm down before she could learn anything more.
After a while, the crying sounds in the living room died down a little.
“Mother, I want to be your son in the next life. I swear that I won’t be as muddled up as I am now. I won’t make you worry about me anymore. Furthermore, I will be filial toward you.”
“I believe you. I believe you.”
“By then, I will ask Ying Zi to bear a fat grandson for you so that he can call you ‘grandmother’ every day.”
“Excellent! This is excellent!” Mrs. Yan dried the tears from her eyes as she smiled with relief.
“Mother, the reason I ask you to come here is because I wish…” Yan Xiaobing’s voice suddenly wavered as he was crying and kowtowed repeatedly. “Mother, I am sorry for letting you down. However, I feel uneasy about leaving you alone in this world…”
Oh my God! What is he planning to do?
Mu Yu understood the meaning behind his words and was extremely shocked.
Mrs. Yan sighed deeply. However, her expression remained calm. Obviously, she was not surprised by what her son was about to do.
“Bing, I am willing to follow you to meet Ying Zi and Xiao Bao.”
“Mother, I…”
“I understand that you would have met them sooner if I wasn’t in the picture. In fact, I have been looking forward to this day for a long time. Don’t say anything anymore. Go ahead and prepare.”
“Mother!” Both of them cried bitterly again.
Mu Yu, who knew that things weren’t looking good, worried again as she shook her head and struggled with all her might. However, she was ignored by them.
“Mother, please take a seat. I will go and get everything prepared.” After a while, Yan Xiaobing dried his tears and helped his mother to the couch. He then turned and entered a room.
Soon afterward, Yan Xiaobing carried out two duvets made from duck down and placed it beside his mother. Then, he ran into the kitchen and brought out a barrel of gasoline from the cupboard and poured half of it all over the couch and duvets. Then, he splashed the rest onto himself and his mother.
“Mmm! Mmm!” Mu Yu trembled with fear as the rancid smell of gasoline assaulted her nostrils. However, she could only look on as both her hands and feet were bound. Her mouth was taped shut as well.
Yan Xiaobing put the barrel aside and ignored the muffled sounds which were getting closer as he adjusted the collar of his mother’s shirt while asking her, “Mother, are you afraid?”
Mrs. Yan smiled and shook her head. “I am going to meet Xiao Bao soon. So, I am looking forward to it.”
“Mother, I am sorry…”
“Bing, I hate it whenever you say sorry as you have always been an obedient son, now and in the future; in this life as well as the next.”
“Mother!” Yan Xiaobing’s tears streamed down his face once again.
“Stop dawdling around. Send Miss Mu out quickly but don’t scare her. Although I have never seen her, I heard a lot about her from Miss Jiang. I know that she is similar to Miss Jiang; both of them are kind-hearted girls. I hope that God blesses them to have a peaceful life ahead of them as one good turn deserves another.”
After Yan Xiaobing was placed in lockup, Jiang Wenwen was worried about Mrs. Yan. She tried to find a way to bring Mrs. Yan from the countryside to the city’s welfare center to take care of her, and because of this, Yan Xiaobing had difficulty finding his mother after he had escaped. Hence, he had no choice but to kidnap Mu Yu in exchange for his mother. Of course, Mu Yu only knew about this much later.
“Ok.”
Yan Xiaobing turned around and walked to Mu Yu’s side. Then, he gave a solemn bow to her and apologized. Following that, he used a knife to cut the ropes on her legs and gently pulled her up.
“Mmm! Mmm!” She shook her head fervently as she followed behind him. She tried her best to pout, indicating that he should help her tear away the duct tape off.
Yan Xiaobing understood her and smiled gratefully. “Miss Mu, I know that you want to persuade us from doing anything stupid. However, my mother and I have already made a decision. Please save your breath. There is a saying back in my hometown that if the entire family perishes in the same incident, then we can reunite in the after life. My mother and I miss Ying Zi and Xiao Bao terribly. If our entire family can reunite in the after life, then death would be a relief for us, and it is the final destination that we anticipate the most. Miss Mu, come, I will bring you outside…”
“That is just a superstition. Don’t be stupid!” Mu Yu managed to free her mouth from the duct tape and quickly tried to persuade him.
“Miss Mu, thank you for your kindness. However, what’s done is done, even if I don’t die, it will be hard for me to escape this…”
“If the hospital manages to detect that you have a history of mental illness, you won’t be trialed. By then, I will help you contact a hospital to treat your illness. After you are cured…”
Yan Xiaobing smiled bitterly and interrupted. “My sins are too great. Even if the doctors could cure me and I stop hurting another person again, I will not be able to forget the terrible things I did in the past. I don’t want to live the rest of my life in regret. It is just too tiring for me. It would be better for me to die rather than causing other people and myself more suffering.”
“But Mrs. Yan is innocent! You have no right to end her life!” Mu Yu knew that he was a filial son. Hence, she tried to use this fact to stop him from committing suicide.
“Miss Mu, I am willing to follow Bing to meet Ying Zi and Xiao Bao.”
Yan Xiaobing held his mother’s hands tightly and looked at Mu Yu. “Miss Mu, now, everybody knows about the incident whereby I pry open the lid of a manhole with the intention to injure people. Nobody can guarantee that the families of the victims won’t exact their revenge on my mother. She is already an elderly person with one foot in the grave. Hence, I cannot let her suffer. I want to protect her.”
“No way! You have my word that nobody will hurt you or your mother! I can guarantee it! I—”
“Miss Mu, please stop persuading us. We have already made our decision. Bing, please see Miss Mu out.”
“Sigh! Ok.” Yan Xiaobing turned to look at Mu Yu and said sincerely, “Miss Mu, the reason I took effort to kidnap you in exchange for my mother was because I have another goal—I know that you are a cop (Yan Xiaobing treated everyone who worked in the public security system as a cop) and also a good person. I want you to know my story so that you could use it as an example to warn and persuade others who have been hurt in hopes that they will never follow in my footsteps.”
With that, he forcefully dragged Mu Yu to the door and bowed once again. Then, he said, “Miss Mu, please apologize to the people I have hurt on my behalf. It is all my fault. In addition to that, if this house could be sold in the event of my passing, then can you donate the money to charity? Furthermore, I want you to thank Wenwen and my neighbors in this community for their care and understanding, even though I have let them down. In fact, I don’t hate them. It’s just that I can’t fight my inner demons anymore, and I can’t forget the fire that took the lives of my family. Take care, Miss Mu.”
“Bing…”
Before she had a chance to finish the later part of her sentence, she was pushed outside. After she found her footing and turned around, the door was slammed shut. Then, a ‘click’ sound was heard as the door was locked from the inside.