Chapter 78 Absolute Guardian

When he woke up again, everything was still dark around him.

Jing Xun rolled over under the warm quilt, and was not surprised to find that the person next to him was not here, but then a burst of thunder sounded, which startled him to open his eyes abruptly.

–The sun had already risen.

But it was raining and overcast outside.

He had no idea if it was due to the rainy weather, but the whole room made him feel chilly.

Jing Xun couldn’t be bothered about this. He rolled down from bed, and saw Shen Yijin’s figure at least ten meters away.

Every morning at 6:30, Shen Yijin would open his eyes and get up on time.

Now it was 6:08 in the morning, but Sir was standing in front of the window neatly dressed.

There was no light in the room. Outside the retro carved window frame, there was a cloudy sky and a light drizzle falling down.

The sky struck by lightning just now was reflected in a gloomy purple hue.

The outside was only slightly brighter than the inside.

Shen Yijin was standing amidst the faint daylight that penetrated in.

He was wearing a simple white shirt and sweatpants.

One of his hands was casually inserted into the pocket, looking from the side, his posture was still very upright, comparable to that of military posture, with slender and straight back, as sharp as an unsheathed blade .

Seeing this scene, Jing Xun paused in his footsteps, then quickly lifted his steps, moving closer to the other party’s direction at a faster speed.

The closer he got, the more he realized that Shen Yijin’s face was as expressionless as ever.

The corners of his lips were tight as he stared deeply out of the window. He just kept staring at it, his thoughts or the reason why he stayed there motionless were unknown.

The bedroom area in the main house of the Shen family was too large and spacious. When he stepped on the thick wool carpet, it created echoes of his footsteps.

So even though it was noisy outside, Shen Yijin still found the youth approaching him.

He turned his head first, his gaze slowly moved from outside the window to the inside, and finally fell on the barefoot young man.

He was wearing a simple loose T-shirt, and the hem of the shirt only covered the base of his legs.

Jing Xun didn’t wear pants.

The thin soles of his feet were deeply sunken in the thick wool carpet, only the snow-white insteps were exposed. Further up were the youth’s slender ankles and straight calves.

Since the young man stepped on the carpet, Shen Yijin was not overly tense, nor did he walk to his side immediately.

He just looked at the youth slowly, from top to bottom, and then from bottom to top.

Finally, he tilted his head slightly and asked: “Xiao Xun?”

“Why do you wake up so early?”

His speech was much slower than usual.

The expressionless Shen Yijin seemed to be having a hard time saying such a complete sentence.

Knowing that the other party’s speaking manner was wrong, he presumed that Sir was ‘sick’ again. Jing Xun tried his best to behave as usual without the slightest abnormality: “I just got up to use the bathroom. How about you, Sir… Are you in a bad mood?”

“En.”

Shen Yijin was stunned for a long time. It seemed that he needed to carefully consider every word Jing Xun said, and then make associations to understand the meaning of his sentence. It took a long time before he replied, “I’m fine.”

With that, he raised his hand and beckoned to Jing Xun, “Come here.”

But after noticing that a section between them had no carpet, he took the initiative to walk over to the bed, took out the slippers that the young man had left under the bed, and turned around and put it back next to the youth.

“Isn’t Xiao Xun going to the bathroom?” He stared down at him, and said seriously.

“I……”

Jing Xun lifted his feet and put on his slippers, and met Shen Yijin’s emotionless gaze. He subconsciously suggested: “Sir, would you like to go with me…?”

It was true that he wanted to go to the bathroom.

But inexplicably, he didn’t want to leave Shen Yijin here alone.

Even if two people were still in the same room, even if he just left for a while…

So it’s better to go together.

Anyway, they were a pair of husbands.

Jing Xun simply took Shen Yijin’s hand and brought him to the bathroom.

Of course, he was not bold and perverted enough to let Shen Yijin go in and watch him release the water. He took the person to the bathroom door and let go of that hand. Jing Xun suggested: “Will you wait for me here?”

“…Be good, don’t move.” Jing Xun added.

At this moment, Jing Xun suddenly felt like he was taking care of a child.

…Who made the Shen child, who was half a head taller than him, so obedient?

Shen Yijin really stood there and said, “En.”

After he promised, when Jing Xun finished using the bathroom and came out, he was still standing in his original position without moving.

Jing Xun was about to raise his hand that had just been washed and dried with a trace of water vapor to hold Shen Yijin, but the other party was one step ahead and held him first.

Ten fingers interlaced, Shen Yijin’s big palm was dry, and his fingers were long and powerful.

He asked him: “Are you done?”

“…..” Jing Xun replied, “Done.”

“Then we’re going back.” Shen Yijin said softly.

Jing Xun: “……”

Just now he brought Shen Yijin over.

When they went back, it was his turn to be led back by the other party.

Looking at Sir’s careful and cautious posture while pulling him, Jing Xun suddenly understood: So Sir thought that I was afraid to go to the bathroom alone and wanted him to accompany me?

……

Was that what he thought?

Jing Xun certainly never had a time when he was afraid to go to the bathroom alone.

But Shen Yijin had always been responsive to his requests.

…If Shen Yijin misunderstood that Jing Xun asked him to accompany him to the bathroom, he wouldn’t say anything. It was indeed his style to just come directly with him.

……

So be it.

Jing Xun shook their intertwined hands, and said, “Thank you Sir for accompanying me… accompany me to the bathroom.”

Shen Yijin looked back at him with a sudden smile in his eyes.

He didn’t speak, but his indulgent and doting indicated that he didn’t mind.

After being led out of the bathroom area, Jing Xun was taken all the way back to the bed. Shen Yijin said, “Xiao Xun will go back to sleep again?”

He said earnestly: “After you had a good sleep, the sky will clear up. By then, we will go out to play ball again.”

“…En.” Jing Xun looked at Shen Yijin carefully, feeling that the speed and intonation of Sir’s speech seemed to have returned to normal at this time, not as slow and dazed as before.

Sir at this moment, in Jing Xun’s view, was completely the same as normal.

But Jing Xun was keenly aware that Shen Yijin wasn’t fine at all.

He was really unwell this time.

Jing Xun brought Shen Yijin to sit down on the side of the bed together, trying to say, “Then, Sir, also accompany me to sleep?”

Shen Yijin still had no objections. After Jing Xun lay back to his place, he(syj) carefully covered him with a quilt, and followed to lay on the side.

The indoor air conditioner was still on, and the sound of rain outside the window made people feel cold.

Shen Yijin closed his eyes immediately after lying down, as if he was really going to sleep.

It wasn’t until Jing Xun touched his hand, rolled over and half propped up his upper body to look at him did Shen Yijin open his eyes and ask softly, “What’s the matter?”

Jing Xun half lay there, looking at him anxiously: “If you are really uncomfortable, please tell me, don’t hold it alone Sir.”

Jing Xun met Shen Yijin’s black-laquer-like eyes and said very earnestly.

Then he suddenly leaned over and began to rub his head against him here and there like a little kitten.

Although later on, Sir had never been particularly sick, when he met with the psychologist as a family member last time, Jing Xun also asked about Shen Yijin’s feelings during the attack and how to cope with it.

Dr. Li provided him with many ideas. He said that when Sir’s mind was confused, one of the ways to help him get back to reality was to constantly touch him and guide him to focus on the real touch.

“Of course, Mr. Shen will show some…very strong resistance when he is not in good condition. Prior to this, Mr. Shen had never allowed anyone to come into contact with him when he was sick.”

At that time, Dr. Li had repeatedly advised him: “So if Mr. Yan wants to try, you should still pay attention to Mr. Shen’s state at that time.”

The implication was that, before using touching therapy, look at the wishes of the unsober Shen Yijin. If he doesn’t allow it, don’t force it.

But Jing Xun, who had never been rejected, unsurprisingly succeeded in touching the other party this time.

Not only could he touch, but he could also transfer half of his body’s weight to Shen Yijin’s body, rubbing him like that.

From the start, he had left Dr. Li’s advice behind. The first time he was officially on duty, Jing Xun was very hard-working.

Shen Yijin, who was crushed on the bed by the youth, seemed to understand what the other party was doing after a long time.

“Jing Xun.”

When he called him, his dark eyes moved down slightly, and gradually gathered on the face of the young man who was half lying on him.

Not only did he condone the other party’s movements, he even raised his hand to clasp his waist and supported his body.

His thoughts shuttled in and out of the chaos as he called his name one more time “Jing Xun.”

“……Hey.”

Jing Xun, who responded, had a sour nose straight away.

According to experience, he knew that Shen Yijin was in a very bad condition at the moment.

No matter standing, sitting, or lying down, as long as he stayed awake, he wouldn’t feel well. It was impossible to fall asleep even if he wanted to.

Because he was awake.

Sir was just trying to show him the calmest and the most usual side.

——If it weren’t for the extremely confused internal thinking at the moment, how could Sir mistakenly think that he wanted him to accompany him to the bathroom, and even mentioned something about going to play ball after the sky cleared up.

…He simply never said anything about playing ball today.

In Sir’s mind, he was afraid it was as Dr. Li had said, some hallucinations had occurred.

But even so, Shen Yijin still tried hard to distinguish between reality and illusion.

Without thinking, he moved his feet to accompany him to the bathroom.

He promised to play ball when the rain stopped.

……

Regardless of true or false, he would always make the best decision for him, and strive to behave normally in front of him…

Jing Xun really couldn’t tell how he(jx) was feeling right now.

Just the thought of Shen Yijin clumsily trying hard to pretend to be fine in front of him… It was too distressing!

He distressedly plunged into the other party’s arms.

When the two of them lived together, Sir protected him in all aspects with an absolutely strong attitude as a partner.

Even when he was having an attack, he was struggling to hold on to his heart and emotions for his sake, pretending that nothing was wrong.

But for such a considerate Shen Yijin, Jing Xun couldn’t help him much.

This feeling was really awful.

Actually, it had been a long time since Sir had an attack.

The last time he showed a trace of out of control emotion was when Brother Tang came back and they went to the bar together.

At that time, Sir had said it himself that he would not feel out of control because of thunder and rain.

Of course, there had been thunder and rain in the later days, and Shen Yijin really felt okay.

So today, how did…

Clearly, everything was fine yesterday.

He was puzzled, but now was not the time to think about it.

Jing Xun suddenly rolled over, and completely toppled on Shen Yijin’s body.

He reached out and unbuttoned the other party’s shirt. At times like this just touching didn’t feel like enough.

Jing Xun also leaned down.

——Directly bite his upper lip!

The neck and other places couldn’t be spared either. Anyway, Sir said that he liked to be bitten by him.