Marriage First, True Love Later - Chapter 158

Chapter 158: release

Translator: 549690339
“Wait a moment.” Tong Xiaojie called out to her. “Can we have a talk?”

Anran stopped in her tracks and didn’t turn around. She only frowned slightly and said, ” “I don’t think we have anything to talk about.” She didn’t want to deal with any of the Tong family’s people! He walked past her and stepped into the elevator, ready to leave.

Tong Xiaojie turned her head and looked at Anran’s back. &Quot; “I’ve divorced mo Fei!”

“That’s your business, it has nothing to do with me.” She still didn’t turn her head and walked straight into the elevator. Whether it was mo Fei or the Tong family, she didn’t want to know a single thing about them!

Then, he turned around and reached out to press the elevator button without looking at her.

!!

However, it seemed like Tong Xiaojie really wanted to clear things up with her. She reached out and blocked the elevator door. Her eyes were fixed on her as she said, ” “Even if you don’t want to talk to me about mo Fei, I think we should at least talk about your relationship with the Tong family!”

Only then did Anran raise her eyes to look at her. She stared straight at her for a long time before she coldly said, ” I have nothing to do with your Tong family! &Quot;

“Let’s talk, I have something to tell you.” Tong Xiaojie insisted. Her hand was still on the elevator’s metal door.

An ran looked at her for a long time before she finally stepped out of the elevator.

The sky was Not Dark Yet, but the sun was slowly setting in the West, leaving a charming red in the sky. It was very beautiful.

Anran and Tong Xiaojie sat down on the stone chairs by the flower bed in the hospital. Anran’s gaze fell on the children playing on the lawn in front of her. She held her bag and placed it on her knees, but she didn’t say anything.

Tong Xiaojie looked at Anran, or to be exact, stared at her bulging stomach. It took a while for her to regain her senses. She turned her face slightly and looked in the same direction as Anran, but her eyes were not focused, and her eyes were slightly red.

A gentle breeze blew past, causing their hair to dance in the air. After a long moment of silence, Tong Xiaojie slowly said, ” &Quot; I also thought that I would have a child and that I would be a Happy Mother. &Quot; His voice was a little low, and he sounded a little depressed.

Anran was stunned. She remembered the time when she had come to her Ward to blame her with a pale face when she had been hospitalized. She had said that her child was gone, and that it was all her fault! She was already very pale, and at that time, she was even paler. If she was a fairy who was above the common populace and had a divine aura around her, then she was a fairy with Broken Wings and looked sick.

&Quot; you insisted on talking to me, ” Anran said a little harshly. &Quot; just to blame me for causing you to lose your child again? ” If that was the case, then she would be too bored. Could it be that they only found the reason for their mistakes on others and never considered whether the fault was on themselves? why did things end up like this? could it be that they didn’t reflect on themselves?

Tong Xiaojie, who was beside her, smiled bitterly and slowly retracted her gaze. She turned to look at her and said with a self-deprecating tone, ” “Can the child come back just because I criticized you?”

Her answer surprised Anran. She turned her head in surprise and met her eyes. She could see the sadness and sadness in her eyes.

&Quot; you … &Quot; Anran didn’t know what to say as she looked at her.

Tong Xiaojie retracted her gaze and turned back to look at the child on the lawn in front of her. However, her eyes were still unfocused and not focused.

After a long while, Anran didn’t know if it was a few seconds or a few minutes. When she finally came to her senses, Tong Xiaojie, who was next to her, slowly opened her mouth and said, ” “I’ve divorced mo Fei.” His tone was no longer as impetuous as when he had first met her at the elevator door.

Anran looked at her and simply said, ” “You just said it.”

“Yeah, I told you.” Tong Xiaojie repeated. Then, she turned to look at her and said,”I’m just surprised. I said that I’ve divorced mo Fei, but I didn’t see any surprise or joy on your face.” She had always thought that she would clap her hands and cheer, then mock her for not being able to last the love she had snatched away, and then mock all the provocative words she had said to her in the past. She had imagined all kinds of expressions and reactions, but she did not expect her reaction to be so calm and without any fluctuations.

&Quot; that’s your marriage and your relationship. What’s there to be surprised about? ” Anran calmly said, ” I told you a long time ago that I’ve never interfered in your relationship. Ever since mo Fei broke up with me six years ago, I’ve already ended our relationship. Even if we meet again six years later, because I don’t want any unnecessary misunderstandings and trouble, I only treat you as acquaintances. We can’t even be considered friends. I hate it when other people interfere in my relationship, so I will never interfere in other people’s relationships. &Quot; Looking at her, an ran’s words had a hidden meaning.

“Hehe.” Tong Xiaojie chuckled, and her smile was somewhat self-deprecating. She was also a smart person, so she naturally understood the meaning behind Anran’s words. She knew that Anran was talking about herself, so she could only say in a self-deprecating manner, ” &Quot; yes, I was the one who intervened in your relationship. I was the real third party. &Quot; As he spoke, he nodded his head. “So he was never my …”

Anran didn’t say anything, but she calmly turned her gaze away. It wasn’t that she didn’t hate their relationship back then, but if she really had to hate someone, she hated mo Fei for a very long time. It was undeniable that the deeper the love, the deeper the hate. At that time, she really thought that mo Fei would be the man who would accompany her for the rest of her life, but she didn’t expect such an unexpected ending. However, her pride wouldn’t allow her to be weak and force a man who had betrayed her to stay. For a long time, she couldn’t get over the pain that that relationship had brought to her. She didn’t dare to fall in love easily again. She didn’t dare to try to be in love. For her, love and marriage were like questions that she had to do. She couldn’t skip them, and she couldn’t leave them blank. To her, it was a task and a responsibility that she had to complete.

She used to think that her immature love would make her lose the courage to believe in love and love someone with all her heart. She was even prepared to treat marriage as a job, but … But life was always full of surprises and surprises. She had never believed in fate, nor did she believe in luck. In the end, she was lucky enough to meet su Yicheng. She never doubted it, and even believed that meeting su Yicheng was the luckiest and happiest thing in her life. She started to believe that the heavens really did care for her.

Sometimes, she wondered if this was what she called true fate. Just as su Yicheng had told her before, they had both been hurt and had both experienced such a long wait. Perhaps those hurt and waiting were for the future, for the sake of their meeting and then getting together. It was an opportunity and test that God had given them, and because of such tests and hardships, they had kept each other.

As she thought about it, an ran’s lips curved into a smile. It was a satisfied and happy smile.

&Quot; do you know? I used to stubbornly think that as long as I could give birth to his child, he would be able to stay by my side for the rest of his life. &Quot; Tong Xiaojie slowly opened her mouth and sneered, ” but he would rather not have a child than stay by my side. &Quot;

Anran didn’t say anything. She just looked at her and didn’t say anything. She didn’t express her opinion on this matter.

“He really doesn’t love me. Even though I tried my best to love him, I’m not in his heart at all.” As Tong Xiaojie spoke, the smile on her face widened. Then, she laughed out loud, ” haha. &Quot; In an ran’s eyes, that smile was a thousand times uglier than crying.

He turned to look at an ran and asked with a smile, ” &Quot; do you think I’m stupid and stupid? I actually worked hard for a man for six years. I spent six years to truly get to know him and accept that this man will not love me. No matter how much I do, no matter how well I do, I will never have a place in his heart. &Quot;

An ran still didn’t say anything, because she didn’t know what she could say. In fact, from this perspective, Tong Xiaojie was also a pitiful person. Could it be that her marriage with her was just to use her family background to help her succeed in her career? but she had never really given her any real feelings. Their marriage was just the product of a certain purpose. In the end, it was not too surprising that they had such an ending.

&Quot; I know he’s with me because of my family background. I know he never loved me. I know how much pain he felt when he made the choice between you and me. I also know that he never forgot you even after leaving you. I know all of this. I know everything. &Quot; As Tong Xiaojie spoke, she turned her head and looked into the distance. The breeze blew her hair into a mess and it stuck to her face. A small tuft of hair even flew to her mouth. She didn’t push it away and continued, ” “I don’t mind that she doesn’t love me. I don’t mind that he’s with me for money and power. I don’t even mind that he can’t forget you in his heart. Even if he calls your name in a daze when he hugs me, I can pretend that I didn’t hear anything. I can also try my best to tell myself that I will live in her heart one day. &Quot; I thought time could change everything. I thought that as time passed, he would be able to erase you from his memory. I thought that as time passed, he would be able to see all the hard work I’ve done, see my love for him, and how well I treated him, but … &Quot; Tong Xiaojie paused. After a long while, she slowly said, ” &Quot; but I was wrong, ridiculously wrong. No love. No matter how much effort I put in, he still couldn’t see my good side, couldn’t see my love. And I spent six years to understand this simple truth. &Quot; As he said this, he slowly placed his hand on his flat stomach. After a while, his hand suddenly tightened into a fist. His expression was pained as he said, ” “The price is actually my child’s life!” The tears in her eyes fell without warning. There was no sound, but it made people feel pity for her.

Anran was stunned, and there was an indescribable shock in her heart. She was a mother-to-be, and she was still pregnant. She knew what it felt like to have a child in the womb. Even though the baby couldn’t even move at first, as if it had never happened, the feeling after knowing it was very wonderful. She couldn’t describe it, but she could feel it.

Anran didn’t know what to say, but looking at her, she couldn’t help but ask, ” “You, are you okay?”

After calming down, she wiped the tears on her face and shook her head. She forced a smile and said, ” &Quot; it’s fine. Although the price is heavy, it’s not meaningless. At least I’ve seen clearly that this man is no longer worthy of my love. I’ve been stupid for six years. It’s time to stop being stupid. &Quot;

Anran didn’t know what to say, so she just looked at her and nodded. It was strange, but at this moment, she actually began to feel pity and pity for her.

“Do you know who he’s with right now?” Tong Xiaojie asked, pretending to be relaxed.

An ran didn’t say anything. She just shook her head and looked at her.

“Xiaoxiao.” Tong Xiaojie said, ” you should be familiar with this name, right? she’s your former colleague. She’s a very charming woman. &Quot;

Anran only nodded. That’s right, she also remembered. The last time eleven and su Yicheng went shopping hand in hand and met on the pedestrian street, Xiao Xiao was very close to him. Because she really only treated him as a stranger, she didn’t deliberately remember his matters because she didn’t care.

Her reaction was so calm that Tong Xiaojie was surprised. She looked at him and asked, ” “You’re not surprised at all?” Even if she really had no feelings for mo Fei, this combination was still very strange, wasn’t it?

“I’ve met them on the streets before,” An ran said honestly.

“Oh, I see.” Tong Xiaojie nodded in understanding and then smiled, ” &Quot; do you know that I used to hate you? I really hated you. I always thought that it was because of you that mo Fei couldn’t accept me and couldn’t love me. If it wasn’t for you, if mo Fei had met me earlier, perhaps our ending wouldn’t have been like this. &Quot;

“From the moment mo Fei broke up with me and walked towards you six years ago, it’s impossible between us.” Anran clarified once again that perhaps before she met su Yicheng, she had never truly let go of mo Fei, or rather, she had never come out of her previous relationship. However, there was one thing she was very clear about. Even if mo Fei turned back, it would still be impossible for them to be together.

“I didn’t believe it before. There’s an old saying that beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder. Hehe, all of his flaws are good in my eyes. Back then, he was the best in my eyes, even perfect. Because I had a strong sense of insecurity in my feelings for him, I always thought you were lying to me. I even thought that such a good man was coveted by everyone outside. Now that I think about it, it’s ridiculous. He’s not good, nor is he perfect. He’s a man who can’t even be loyal to his feelings. How can he be called a good man?”

Anran didn’t say anything and only nodded in agreement. Yes, no matter how good and capable he was, if he couldn’t be devoted to his feelings and loyal, how could he be considered a good man?

Sighing, Tong Xiaojie continued, ” “When he brought that woman to me and handed me the divorce agreement, I finally understood that the person this man loved the most was himself. “At that time, I finally understood how wrong I was. I always thought it was because of you, but that day, I realized that even without you, there would still be Lin Anran, Zhang Anran, and Li Anran. All of these were just excuses, a reason that he wouldn’t fall in love with me. The real reason wasn’t that he couldn’t let go of anyone or forget anyone, but that he loved himself the most. It had always been only him.”

&Quot; if he really loved you, he wouldn’t have left you because of my family background. He values himself more than anything else and has always thought of himself the most. &Quot; Tong Xiaojie said sarcastically, ” this kind of man doesn’t have a heart at all, so no matter how much time you spend, it’s all in vain. He won’t fall in love with anyone, he will only love himself. &Quot;

The children playing on the lawn had been taken away by their mothers. The originally lively lawn suddenly quieted down, leaving only the evening wind blowing past their ears. The sunset in the sky slowly sank, replaced by the dark night.

Anran looked at the empty grass patch and nodded. She smiled and said, ” “Maybe it’s just like what you said.”

Tong Xiaojie also turned her head and looked at the lawn, saying, ” &Quot; actually, I insisted on talking to you today because I wanted to make things clear to you. Also, I know I owe you an apology. &Quot;

Hearing this, Anran turned her head to look at her. She looked at him, and there was an unspeakable surprise on her face.

“I’m sorry,” she said. Tong Xiaojie didn’t turn her head. Her eyes were still looking straight ahead as she calmly said, ” &Quot; I was the one who intervened in your relationship back then. I owe you an apology for that. &Quot; After saying that, he turned to look at her, and their eyes met.

Anran was stunned by her apology. She even began to wonder if the Tong Xiaojie today was the same person as the Tong Xiaojie she had met before.

Tong Xiaojie seemed to have seen through her doubts and said with a smile, ” “Are you going to ask me if I’m still the Tong Xiaojie from before?”

An ran finally came back to her senses, but she still couldn’t hide the shock and surprise on her face.

“I hated you because I thought that you were the one who got in the way of me and Mo Fei. It was because of your existence that mo Fei didn’t try to love me and discover the good in me. But now, I finally understand that the problem between mo Fei and I has always been that I love him and he doesn’t love me. If that’s the case, what reason do I have to hate you?” Tong Xiaojie said in a self-mocking tone.

Anran was stunned. She just looked at her and didn’t respond for a long time. She didn’t nod or say anything.

Tong Xiaojie didn’t look at her. She turned around and stood up. She looked at the sunset in the distance and said, ” &Quot; apologizing is my business, and whether you accept it or not is your business. I’m just apologizing. I don’t care if you’re willing to accept it or not, because I don’t want to be friends with you. The next time we meet, I’ll pretend that you don’t know me, because I’m going to start a new life. &Quot; As she spoke, the corners of Tong Xiaojie’s mouth curved into a faint smile.

He turned around and was about to leave, but just as he was about to leave, he suddenly wanted to get up. He looked at Anran with a serious expression and said, ” &Quot; by the way, apart from clarifying the matter with mo Fei, please don’t disturb our family. Just like you said, you have nothing to do with our Tong family! &Quot;

Anran came back to her senses and understood what she meant. She thought to herself that it seemed like the Tong family already knew about it, but it didn’t matter whether they knew or not. Whether it was Tong Wenhai or the Tong family, they were all meaningless to her. She looked at Tong Xiaojie and said firmly, ” &Quot; I have nothing to do with your Tong family. My father has always been Gu Hengwen. He was in the past, he is now, and he will still be in the future! &Quot;

Tong Xiaojie didn’t say anything more and just nodded. She turned around and prepared to step on the small path made of soft stone and walk directly to the small path outside the garden.

Anran retracted her gaze and didn’t look at her. She turned her head to look at the sunset, which was slowly dimming, and then raised her hand to look at the watch on her wrist. It was getting late. Su Yicheng had told her to wait for him in the ward, so she got up and prepared to return to Lin xiaofen’s ward. Although she didn’t know if he was done with his work, she decided to go back first, in case he got anxious when he returned to the ward after he was done with his work and didn’t see her.

But then she remembered that the two little babies in her belly suddenly moved. She didn’t know if it was their little fists or feet that were kicking her belly. It hurt a little, but it made her feel inexplicably touched.

She smiled and touched her slightly bulging belly. The corner of her mouth was half raised. She lowered her head and said to the baby in her belly,”Baby, do you guys want to see your daddy too?”

She didn’t know if it was a coincidence or if it was really that magical. After she finished asking, the two little babies in her belly punched and kicked each other again, making Anran laugh. &Quot; haha, okay, let’s go find daddy together. &Quot; As he spoke, he slowly stood up and prepared to head towards the hospital building.

However, just as Anran stood up and turned around, before she was ready to leave, she saw that Ling LAN had come to her side without her knowing. At this moment, she was looking at Anran’s half-smile with a dark expression. Her expression was a little sinister and a little scary.