Lose My Heart to the Lovely Kitten Princess - Chapter 195
Chapter 195 Let’s talk about something else
Cheng Xiaoxiao really could not stand this strange atmosphere. She did not expect that Qin, an ancient people, would be a shipper. What’s more, her taste was really odd as well.
Seriously, Chu Jingshuo and Wan Xia did not match at all!
Chu Jingshuo was too pretentious, and he did not match with Wan Xia at all!
Out of habit, Cheng Xiaoxiao stood in the perspective of Wan Xia’s best friend. After thinking carefully, she realized that she was no longer Wan Xia’s friend. Plus, Wan Xia…
Well, Wan Xia had already passed away. There was no use even if Cheng Xiaoxiao and Qin imagined how wonderful Wan Xia and Chu Jingshuo would look together, or even if they fought as Wan Xia would never come back again.
Once again, Cheng Xiaoxiao’s eyes became sore. She had already lost count on how many times she failed to control her emotions in the past two days.
“Let’s talk about something else.”
Suddenly, the Persian cat lowered its voice, causing Qin to look at it immediately. With that, the Persian cat hurriedly turned its head back.
The cat’s movements were a little rushed, and in the panic, Qin saw some transparent water droplets flung out from its face.
“L—l—let me tell you about something else!”
Nervously, she kept fidgeting her fingers and stretched her neck, wanting to see the Persian cat’s expression.
“Ever since Miss got into the habit of looking at trees, she became more hardworking in class than before. Even her mentor has praised her for her excellent ability and rapid progress.”
Just then, the Persian cat moved slightly, but it still did not respond to Qin’s words.
Qin swayed her body anxiously, wanting to peek at the cat’s expression. At the same time, she did not stop talking.
“Also, Miss will also practice for long hours in private. If she had nothing to do, she would tie decorative knots. At first, the knots she tied did not look good, and even I would look down upon her.”
As Qin spoke, she covered her mouth and laughed while the Persian cat sniffled next to her.
Then, she peeked at the Persian cat again. “Don’t be fooled by how Miss is proficient in everything now. She used to be very clumsy. After learning how to tie decorative knots for a few months, she finally made one that was okay, but unfortunately, she lost it after that.”
Rambling on and on, Qin wanted to tell Cheng Xiaoxiao everything about the past, and she actually listened to Qin with relish.
However, the more she listened, the more uncomfortable she felt.
What Cheng Xiaoxiao was thinking about now were the old stories of Wan Xia. With her smart brain, she could easily imagine the appearance of the younger version of Wan Xia.
As Qin talked more and more, the appearance of young Wan Xia in her mind gradually overlapped with Wan Xia’s face.
Wan Xia, that was Wan Xia.
Murmuring in her heart, Cheng Xiaoxiao slowly closed her eyes and held back the last bit of moisture in her eyes.
“What did she write in her will?”
The Persian cat’s voice was hoarse and sounded nasal.
“Aren’t you…” Before Qin could finish her words, she saw the cat shooting her a murderous glance, so she hurriedly stopped speaking.
“Hurry up and tell me.”
Although Cheng Xiaoxiao urged impatiently, her eyes were full of urgency. “I won’t listen anymore if you don’t say it now.”
She should see it herself earlier so that she would not have to waste so much effort and wait for Qin to tell her.
“Oh, right!” Qin quickly came back to her senses. Tilting her head, she tried to recall the will she had just seen. “There’s a lot of words I don’t know. Please understand if I pronounce wrongly.”
“Oh, you’re so full of crap. I promise I won’t blame you, and I can tell if you read wrongly later on. But I really won’t listen to it anymore if you still don’t say it now.”
Cheng Xiaoxiao walked beside the birdcage. Initially, she had already prepared herself mentally several times while waiting for Qin to read the will. She did not expect Qin to talk nonsense for this long.
“In a world full of people, no one can be trusted. Who can I share my infatuation and love with? This trip is unsuccessful, and everything is difficult to achieve.”
Annoyed, Cheng Xiaoxiao kept walking around the birdcage in circles, and hence, she was caught off guard when she heard Qin reading out a verse.
Qin’s voice was relatively soft and cute, and it was like the voice of a sweet young girl.
As she read the verse, there were several pauses, stammering, and she broke off some of the sentences incorrectly as well.
But, it was that voice that stopped Cheng Xiaoxiao in her tracks and had her stunned in place.
‘Everything is difficult to achieve.’ What a quote!
With just a short thirty words, Cheng Xiaoxiao could see Wan Xia’s short life, and the sentence, ‘everything is difficult to achieve,’ reflected Wan Xia’s state of mind to the fullest.
Earlier, Qin said that Wan Xia wrote a blood letter, right? According to TV series, people always wrote blood letters with blood from their fingers.
Which meant that…
When Cheng Xiaoxiao thought of Wan Xia’s smooth and fair hands, her heart ached again.
Cheng Xiaoxiao used to envy Wan Xia’s good skin as even her hands were perfect. But now, Wan Xia bit her own fingers so ruthlessly.
Since veins ran from the fingers to the heart, it must have hurt a lot.
Cheng Xiaoxiao thought of how she cried out in pain for a few days when she broke her nails, and then she thought of Wan Xia. How desperate was Wan Xia for her to write such sad lines with the blood of her fingertips?
At the thought of how they had a conversation last night, Cheng Xiaoxiao couldn’t believe that it was her last time meeting Wan Xiao.
She had also thought that she would never see Wan Xia again in her life, but she had never expected that it would be in this way.
She thought they would just stay out of each other’s sight and be in peace.
Who would have thought…
At once, emotions tumbled in Cheng Xiaoxiao’s eyes, but fortunately, there were no more tears this time.
But would she not be sad if she didn’t cry?
The woman who smiled at her and said ‘come with me’; the woman who got up early and made her fish soup; the woman who couldn’t see her beloved one last time before she died; the woman who wanted to get along well with her…
She still had persistence and hatred, so how could she leave so easily?
How could she be so willing to abandon her enemies just like this?
Feeling sore in the throat, Cheng Xiaoxiao kept swallowing saliva to suppress the pain.
She knew that there must be no expression on her face, and her tone must also be extremely cold.
On the surface, it seemed that she was not touched by Wan Xia’s will at all, as if she just wanted to sit for a while.
“Uh…” Qin stuttered as she stood in front of Cheng Xiaoxiao, looking like she wanted to say something but did not dare to.
“I’ll explain it to you.”
As expected, Cheng Xiaoxiao’s voice could not be any calmer. Sitting still, she looked up at Qin and explained word by word.
“Wan Xia said that she had wronged you, and she hopes that you can forgive her.”
“Is that all? But that poem is quite long.” Qin gazed at the Persian cat skeptically, trying to read something in its eyes.
“Also, she doesn’t want to be punished by the Prince and would rather die with dignity. As long as you forgive her, her last wish is fulfilled.”
With a serious gaze, Cheng Xiaoxiao stared back at Qin. However, she quickly shifted her gaze to the ground right after she had finished her words.
How could she tell Qin about Wan Xia’s true thoughts? Looking at how Qin was a crybaby, she would definitely cry again if she knew.
Moreover, what Wan Xia said was her secret, so Cheng Xiaoxiao would never tell this secret to a third person so easily.
In addition, Qin was too pure and innocent. She had already lived a hard life when she was alive. Now, it would only make her suffer more if Cheng Xiaoxiao let her know about Wan Xia’s thoughts.
“But I have never blamed Miss…” Qin mumbled in a daze.
“What did you say?”
Since Cheng Xiaoxiao was stuck in her emotions just now, she didn’t hear Qin’s words clearly. Without any hesitations, she asked Qin again.
“I said, I have never blamed Miss.”
Qin looked at the Persian cat with certainty and repeated her words.
“Well, then you…”
Cheng Xiaoxiao had never expected that Qin would say that. She thought that even if Qin was magnanimous and did not resent Wan Xia, Qin must have blamed Wan Xia, even for a little bit.
“I know you want to say that Miss had done those nasty things to me, and I had also exposed her directly, so I must be resentful of her, right?
Naturally, Qin looked at the Persian cat, and the cat, who was also staring at her, couldn’t find any sign of resentment on her face.
“One false step, and there is no return. I didn’t want to watch Miss continue to make one mistake after another.” Qin smiled bitterly, and her eyes would still turn teary each time Wan Xia was mentioned.
“As for what she did to me… I don’t blame her, really.”
Then, Qin imitated the Persian cat and sniffled, holding back all the tears in her eyes.
“Miss has too many weights on her shoulders. The Eighth Prince’s suppression, Miss Wan Yun’s death, and those women’s malice from the beginning…”
That was indeed true.
In fact, what Qin said was not all yet. Wan Xia also had other heavy thoughts—and that was—her love for a mysterious man.
Wan Xia was about the same age as Wan Yun, and both of them were only around sixteen years old.
They had to bear such great pressure at the age of sixteen. At once, Cheng Xiaoxiao thought of the time when she was around sixteen years old, and her heart was instantly filled with mixed feelings.
On the other side, Qin was still patting her chest and speaking proudly, “I am just a servant, a nobody, and there is nothing much that I can help Miss. But since she thinks that I am useful, then I must be valuable.”
Perhaps it was because Qin was too understanding that it was morbid, causing Cheng Xiaoxiao, a modernized person, to blurt out her thoughts.
“How can you say that? You are an independent person!”
“But I am Miss’s maid, so I should share my fate with her.”
Qin’s words were still so naive, her voice so sincere that Cheng Xiaoxiao could not think of anything else to change her mind.
Perhaps this would be a good ending for both Qin and Wan Xia.
One was loyal, and one was guilty, but ultimately, both of them still cared for each other.
“Well, you have any plans now?”
Cheng Xiaoxiao changed the topic and stopped correcting Qin’s thoughts.
“Plans? I don’t have any plans… Didn’t you say that souls can reincarnate after completing their wish? Can I do it now?”
Cheng Xiaoxiao did not expect that Qin only wanted to meet Wan Xia and had no other wish. After pausing for a while, she tried to make her voice sound bright and cheerful.
“Sure! You can do it at any time whenever you want to!”
“I should do it as soon as possible then! I’m afraid that Miss won’t be able to wait for me and will be anxious if I delay it for too long.”
Upon hearing Qin’s words, Cheng Xiaoxiao looked at her in surprise. Qin was soon embarrassed by Cheng Xiaoxiao’s look, and then she twisted her fingers, lowered her head, and scuffed the ground with her embroidered shoes.
“Get ready then.”
