If the Deep Sea Forgets You - Chapter 149
Chapter 149: My Wife
That night, after she took her medicine, her brain became dazed as though she was going to fall asleep. Just as she was about to fall asleep, she felt that there was a mass of hot air pressing down on her, making her feel itchy and uncomfortable.
She fought her sleepiness to open her eyes, and saw a half naked Han Liang bending over her. His strong arms were exposed and he was hugging her shoulders while he kissed her neck. She was shocked wide awake in that moment, and immediately sat up to push him off her. However, the effects of the sleeping pill made her entire body felt soft and weak, and she was so anxious that she kept sweating.
“What are you doing?” Even her voice was faint.
Han Liang did not answer her question.
She heard ruffling sounds as Han Liang stood up to take off his clothes.
She fought to stay awake and ruthlessly bit the tip of her tongue. The pain woke her up and she gave Han Liang a slap when he came upon her again.
Han Liang froze, using the tip of his tongue to lick the corners of his mouth and stared at her disbelievingly.
Xia Qingyi pulled her clothes back, but Han Liang came upon her again. She felt that her strength was coming back a little and she no longer felt like cotton, so she simply kicked Han Liang off, who rolled out of the bed.
Xia Qingyi sat up and wanted to walk out barefooted without even wearing her shoes, avoiding her gaze at the nearly naked Han Liang sitting on the floor. But Han Liang grabbed her hand and tried to push her towards the bed.
Xia Qingyi was furious. She climbed out of the bed, but Han Liang wanted to get in again. She climbed towards the window on the bed and shoved the windows open in one push, the cold wind entering from the outside instantaneously.
“Take one more step towards me, and I’ll jump!” Xia Qingyi glared at him.
Han Liang stopped moving and looked at her. “Nian Nian, stop messing around. We’re husband and wife.”
Xia Qingyi smiled. “Han Liang, you’re really disgusting. I’m not even how we got married in the first place.”
“I’m disgusting?” Han Liang said, “You said that I’m disgusting? Nian Nian, you’ll know how loving we were everyday if you could remember it. Unlike how you’d walk so far away whenever I touch you for a moment now.”
Han Liang continued, “Nian Nian, I’m your husband. You told me to give you time to adjust, and I did. Now that one week has already passed, why are you still like this? Is it because of that Mo Han? Why, have you fallen in love with him after you’ve forgotten about me? Are you addicted to staying with him?”
She felt Han Liang was acting ridiculous. “What does this have to do with him?! We’re talking about things between the two of us! Don’t drag anyone else into our matters.”
Han Liang raised his leg and inched closer to Xia Qingyi. “Since this has nothing to do with him, let’s go on with our own lives happily.”
Xia Qingyi gritted her teeth and said, “Han Liang, I’d reminded you already.”
“What?” Han Liang inched closer towards her again.
However, Xia Qingyi did not give him any chance. He had never thought that she would really jump.
She had already jumped in the instant when he wanted to grab her, and she landed on the lawn with a loud thud.
Han Liang’s heart went still immediately. He looked down, and saw Xia Qingyi twitch on the ground before she slowly stood up. She turned back to look at Han Liang, and then walked through the door to the outside beneath the hazy moonlight.
She had already left. Han Liang sat at the bedside and thought back to the expression on Nian Nian’s face earlier. A heavy sense of defeat loomed over him.
He knew clearly that Nian Nian was no longer the same. She was completely different from who she was in the past.
But he only wanted to believe that Nian Nian had returned. His most beloved Nian Nian had finally returned to his side no matter what.
To him, this was already enough.
As long as Nian Nian was back, he could deal with anything in the future.
This had always been his obsession.
Xia Qingyi did not walk too far, because she really did not know where to go.
She did not know what time it was now. Walking alone in the cold silent night beneath the dim yellow light from the lampposts, she could only hear the sounds of her own footsteps.
It was fortunate that she was not injured badly and had only bruised her leg, making walking a little inconvenient. She was only wearing thin pajamas, so she was freezing in the cold night and she kept trembling. She had to keep on rubbing her body non-stop and moving her feet to keep her body warm.
Because she had no place to go, she simply found an entrance of a shop with steps and sat down, letting herself have a place to rest in this night filled with problems.
She sat on the icy steps, looked up at the wide starless night sky and felt that she might not be able to hold on any longer.
She originally thought that things would become better after getting her memories back. But her memories were not back yet, and she was already unable to stomach it any longer. She wanted to return to Mo Han.
Except that she did not know whether she could go back. Since she could not find the important part of her memories, and she could not remember all the memories she had during her time together with Han Liang, she could not act rashly.
But Mo Han no longer wanted her to come back. Even though he had clearly told her that she should not contact him any longer in a stern voice, she could not stop herself from wanting to call him. She wanted to tell him what had happened to her here.
The more Xia Qingyi thought about it, the more she felt like crying, so she took out her phone to call him, but realized that she had not even brought her phone out along with her.
She gave up and curled her body up, placing her head onto her legs and using both hands to hug herself for warmth. The night wind brought cold air along with it as it blew, making her tremble with cold. Her brain started to become dazed as well, making her want to make use of this haziness to fall asleep.
In her daze, the sky had turned slightly lighter. Xia Qingyi still remained awake, and she found Han Liang standing before her.
“I’m sorry, we… should go home,” Han Liang apologized softly.
He added, “It’s my fault. I shouldn’t be like this, you have your own reasons, I should be more understanding of you. Nian Nian, let’s not fight over this matter, alright? Come home with me.”
She looked up at him and said nothing.
“We can take it slowly in the future, I won’t ask for anything else, as long as you come back.”
Xia Qingyi stood up in the end and followed him home, back to that house. Because she knew that if she wanted to get her memories back, she had no other choice.
After being exposed to the wind outside for an entire night, Xia Qingyi started to develop a fever when she came back. Han Liang helped her apply for leave, and let her rest in her room after eating medicine. But Xia Qingyi still did not dare to sleep. Even though she felt extremely weak and was on the brink of exhaustion, she still did not dare to sleep, afraid that what had happened last night would happen again.
Han Liang watched her pretend to fall asleep in the room and left, saying that he needed to attend to something. Xia Qingyi waited until he left before she sat up again, preparing to find her friends at the detective agency. She wanted to investigate what had happened in this family in the past. She could not simply sit here and do nothing and wait for her memories to come back.
Luckily, that friend was also in this city. Xia Qingyi did not waste a lot of time before she spoke with him in a cafe. When he left, it was already two in the afternoon. The sunlight coming through the glass made the window warm, and the long awaited sleepiness finally entered her body.
She looked at her surroundings. The cafe had put on some gentle music and the customers were speaking softly within their small groups, and even her body felt like jelly as she leaned back against the sofa. Since the environment was just nice and cosy, she might as well try to sleep for a while.
She was afraid that she would still be unable to sleep even after closing her eyes, so she dug out her sleeping pills from her bag and ate two. She rested her head again the glass window and slept. As she closed her eyes, Xia Qingyi secretly laughed at herself for being so pathetic, never once before had she thought that sleeping would be such a difficult thing for her to do.
Mo Han still went to F City. After he had calmed down at the office, he called the number he had been wanting to for the past eight days, except that no-one picked up. After that, he drove to F City because he just wanted to see her.
No matter what she said, no matter what her attitude towards him would be, he just wanted to see her.
It seems that if he saw her, the pain that had been pressing down on his heart would become better.
Mo Han went to that house, but she was not there.
He drove out to find her, just as he did in the past in S City when she was playful and stayed outside. Lost in the twists and turns of the streets, he felt as though he was back in the past. She had never left, and nothing had happened between the both of them.
The past was filled with smiles and happiness, whilst the present was only loneliness.
Parting was easily the saddest thing.
Sadness was someone leaving, and it was others leaving while you were left to wait by yourself. Only you had to take on the pain and the loneliness.
Mo Han thought through the numerous layers of the past, and through the crowded streets, finally saw Xia Qingyi leaning against the glass.
She slept quietly. She looked the same. But Mo Han felt as though he was in another world.
He stopped the car at the roadside and walked into the cafe.
A waitress was standing beside Xia Qingyi looking at her, and she seemed to be troubled.
“Miss, Miss?” The waitress asked.
Mo Han walked to her side, looked at the sleeping Xia Qingyi and said, “Is there anything wrong?”
“Do you know her?” The waitress asked.
Mo Han nodded his head.
The waitress let out a sigh. “She had been sleeping here for two hours, no matter how I tried calling her she wouldn’t wake up. I’m only afraid that something had happened and was thinking of sending her to the hospital.”
“Nothing, she’s probably too tired.” Mo Han said, “Go and do your work, I’ll wake her up later.”
“That’ll be great.” The waitress asked, “Would you like to drink something?”
Mo Han looked at the sleeping Xia Qingyi, “The same as hers please.”
The waitress nodded her head and left. Mo Han sat down beside Xia Qingyi and carefully moved her head from the glass window to his shoulder, listening to her steady breathing.
