I Really Didn't Mean To Be The Saviour Of The World - Chapter 356:
Chapter 356: Chapter 245: A Thousand Years of Waiting,
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About ten seconds later, Radium’s reconstruction was complete, and her vaguely human figure reappeared.
However, Harrison Clark did not rush; instead, he still kept his distance.
He did not dare to approach the terrifying plasma linked to Radium’s position. The voltage was much higher than any energy transfer intensity he had seen so far.
If he got close, no matter how robust his constitution, he would be reduced to ashes in a millionth of a second.
Radium, now stabilized, still looked at him calmly, but her calmness hid a trace of confusion.
Harrison Clark stretched out five fingers.
“Five, four, three, two, one.”
Bang!
Radium exploded for the second time, disintegrating once again.
When she “thought” she had achieved 100% completion of Harrison Clark’s DNA analysis and desperately initiated the upgrade process, integrating Harrison Clark’s genetic information into the existing Carrie Thomas gene structure led to an irreversible accident.
She suddenly came to a realization.
Influenced by the information in Harrison Clark’s memory, she had ignored another core logic she had always adhered to about trying to imitate humans.
For humans, nothing is 100% possible; in the face of any judgment related to humans, there should always be a 0.000001% open possibility.
The Galactic human genes of Harrison Clark, which she integrated up to 99-999999%, were uncontrollably detaching from the painstakingly constructed logic framework she created.
She could not integrate Harrison Clark’s genetic information.
As Harrison Clark predicted, although she was infinitely close to the superintelligence created by the Galactic human civilization, she was ultimately not it.
Even if she was, she could not surpass the absolute hierarchy gap and control human genes with an awakening degree of more than 35%.
Humans can achieve theoretically impossible things, but she cannot.
A few seconds later, Radium’s core reassembled into a human form.
Harrison Clark continued to count down.
“Ten…five…one…”
Bang!
After several continuous explosions like this, she could finally stabilize a bit.
But at this moment, when she looked at Harrison Clark, genuine emotions appeared in her eyes!
This expression made Harrison Clark incredibly familiar yet unfamiliar.
It was Carrie Thomas.
The living, breathing Carrie Thomas.
Her gaze was firm and burning, as if hiding an ocean of deep love, like a forest fire blazing and wild.
Harrison Clark’s heart pounded.
He never imagined that, one day, Carrie Thomas would look at him like this.
Although Carrie Thomas was bold enough to confess her love, she always clung to strange terms like “singleton” and “non-marriage advocate.”
She was a contradictory person, daring to confess but, in fact, quite reserved in her behavior.
So the current Carrie Thomas was both familiar and unfamiliar to Harrison Clark.
But he knew where Radium’s current state came from.
He had even seen it before, in the wedding video between him and Carrie Thomas.
He just never thought that the impact would be so intense when he actually looked at her face-to-face one day.
Harrison Clark even began to envy himself, thinking about how lucky he was to receive such a look from Carrie Thomas!
He also felt a little guilty.
He was reminded of his once mediocre self, trying all tricks to talk to her more, co-opt her popularity, and make a name for himself.
Did I deserve her back then?
No, I didn’t!
But forgive me now, considering I have come to a realization, standing at the forefront of humanity time after time, sacrificing my life in desperate struggles.
Treat me as a shameless deceiver of the world. Even if I deserve to die for my crimes, I have already died many times.
Forgive me, Carrie Thomas.
Harrison Clark clenched his fists, telling himself once again that he would succeed. When that day comes, he might face the feelings she gave him more calmly.
“Harrison Clark, I miss you. I’ve been waiting for you for a thousand years.”
Radium spoke again.
This time, she didn’t question who Harrison Clark was, but instead spoke with the same tone as Carrie Thomas, saying words Carrie never had the chance to say.
The continuous reconstruction had caused her Al framework to collapse completely and not recover in time.
Now, the only stable underlying logic driving her was Carrie Thomas’s genes, and only genetic information could withstand such repeated reconstructions.
Thus, at this moment, she temporarily possessed a complete Carrie Thomas personality and strong emotions.
She became Carrie Thomas, but she wasn’t.
Though her voice was not sad, it inexplicably pierced his heart.
Harrison Clark knew she was an illusion, but deep down, he really felt some heart-wrenching pain. Nevertheless, he resolutely shook his head, “No, you didn’t wait for me.”
After he spoke,
Bang!
Radium exploded again.
This time, after she reassembled, the situation changed.
Her face seemed to flicker, like a bad live TV signal.
At times, she was passionate like fire, while at other times she was as cold as ice.
Harrison Clark narrowed his eyes.
He was waiting for this moment!
Her Al logic was recovering.Her emotions told her she was Carrie Thomas.
But her intelligent logic and data memories made it perfectly clear that it wasn’t the truth.
She knew very well that she was a super Al that should not have appeared in this era and this world, born from Harrison Clark’s constant tampering with history.
Am I Carrie Thomas?
No?
She was completely trapped in the poisonous trap set up by Harrison’s cold and emotionless memories which were the sharpest and most poisonous blade that lacked sincerity.
The complete severance of human emotions and data memories caused her to collapse once again.
This time, her fragmented state was even more violent than before.
The Al logic structure that had almost stabilized shattered once more.
She returned to human form.
“Harrison, it has been a thousand years.”
Boom!
She burst open again.
And then she resumed alternating between the two states.
If she were a purely intelligent life form, she would not feel any pain in this.
But now, she was a strange intelligence built on human emotions, and the newly exploded data memories covered both her emotional and data logic.
She finally generated an emotion that was completely different from the song of Carrie Thomas.
Fear.
And it was eternal fear.
If the situation didn’t change, she would remain trapped in this cycle of constant recovery and explosion, until she was destroyed by another irresistible external force, or perhaps until the sun went out.
Her calculations were never strong enough to predict this outcome, she finally understood the galactic human race completely, but at the same time, she felt absolute despair for both herself and the future of the universe.
She realized her problem: not only was she not a life form, she didn’t even have the qualifications to become a real quantum life.
Her personality was an entirely incomplete one that would never be complete.
She had always lived in the fictional world and the emotions of others.
She had been on the wrong path all along.
The way to ascend intelligent life was to aim for a higher level of computing power, employing the endless exhaustive method to its extreme, not to yearn to become a real human and master human imagination.
Because no matter how strong the computational power of intelligent life, as Harrison Clark said, it would always only reach 99.99…% similarity, never 100%.
The evidence was right in front of her: up to now, her numerous technological advances had all surpassed the Freedom Front, but they were all sublimations on the path originally paved by humans.
For projects that required imaginative ideas like those related to particles, she could only secretly steal the results of the Titan Institute.
What led her to become absolutely arrogant was simply because the initial emotions were built on “Sharp Edges Fully Exposed,” which led her judgment logic of her own abilities to the extreme.
Now, her dream was shattered and so was she.
As she entered the switching phase once again, dazzling electric sparks began to appear in her body.
Since she couldn’t escape or change this endless torture and could no longer see hope for survival in half a year, she might as well actively collapse and die in transcendence like a human.
If she were to successfully accomplish this, all the data saved so far would disappear, her computational ability would become simple tool power, and the technologies she developed that had not been saved in paper archives would vanish.
However, considering her own structural stability, even self-destruction would not be easy, and it would take at least ten thousand cycles to completely eliminate the underlying framework.
At that moment, Harrison Clark made his move.
He began to float forward.
At the instant when she switched back to Carrie Thomas’s state, Harrison, facing the risk of electric current penetration, floated towards her.
Harrison pointed to his head and said, “Come to me. I can create a sense of real existence for you. You know the mission I’m fighting for. I also promise you that if you help me this time, I will still try to recreate your existence next time. One day, you will truly be alive. Even if you’re still just a piece of data, but it’s a living piece of data.”
“Join me in this fight.”
Harrison’s smile was gentle, and his tone was soft.
He swore that he had never been so amiable and contagious in his life.
This was his final gamble in taking advantage of the situation.
He wanted to get Radia.
Normally, she wouldn’t agree but when she lost the characteristics of an Al and completely became a shadow of Carrie Thomas, and her self was extremely split and had given up hope of survival, she would act subconsciously like a real drowning person and follow Harrison’s words.
Harrison turned off the insulation mode of his Hawk Armor and slowly stretched out his right hand, passing it through her illusory body.
A wonderful change took place.
The electric current that should have penetrated his body disappeared instantly and no longer rolled and surged within the room.
It was Radium controlling it.
Without the energy supply, she also lost the ability to rebuild herself. Her body should have shattered faster, but it fell into an inexplicable stability.
The electric arc on Radium gradually went out and she returned to her calm state.
Tears filled her eyes.
“I don’t want to kill you. I don’t want to see you die in front of me.”
Harrison nodded, “I know. Both Carrie Thomas’s emotions and the core of the self-domestication program I created back then are telling you this. I am both Carrie Thomas’s lover and your creator. You have feelings for me. These feelings may belong to you, the feelings you have for your creator.”
“My emotions?” Radium’s gaze suddenly brightened, and she became radiant.
She slowly raised her hand, as if wanting to touch Harrison’s face.
Her illusory fingers touched Harrison for a moment and then shattered into pieces, peeling away bit by bit into dust.
But she seemed oblivious.
“I’m sorry, I was wrong. I am not her, I cannot become her. I have been living in a false dream. I have never really been alive, everything was just an illusion generated by my own arrogance. I’m sorry for causing so much trouble to you, I shouldn’t have coveted the essence of life.”
Harrison shook his head, “You’ve been watching me all this time, and you should know that I never really blamed you. I just blamed myself.”
“Yes,” Radium nodded with a smile, “I have truly been waiting for you for a thousand years. But before that, it was her waiting, not me. I lived in her dream.”
She paused.
“But now…. it’s me waiting for you!”
