I (30), Who Works for a Black Company and Died While Regretting My Gloomy Life, Started Over From High School! - Chapter 28
28.I can’t say that this time is blissful (I said).
“Then apply the formula here…“
“Oh, I see… so that’s how you get the value.”
The study session with Shijoin-san after school has become a regular event.
At first, I was worried about playing the role of Shijoin-san’s tutor, but thanks to her earnestness, things had been going smoothly until today.
“Fu, I wonder why studying is so hard for me…now, I’m afraid of taking exams when I become a third year …”
Shijoin-san muttered, staring at the desk with textbooks and notebooks on top of it.
Her shoulders seemed to be heavy from the pressure of the final exams.
“But you also said that you like world history and modern Japanese, right?”
“Yes, I like…reading historical and literature books, but…math and other stuff is completely no good.”
The stress of studying apparently showed as Shijoin-san held her head and lamented.
“Ah…you’re not good at science in general, Shijoin-san.”
“That’s right! I don’t know if I’ll really use those plane vectors and trigonometric functions in the future, let alone chemistry and biology! It’s making me cry!”
Umu, she’s really upset.
She’s been working really hard to lift off the light novels ban, but it seems that she’s quite burnt out now that the final exams are drawing near.
“Well, if you’re aiming for a specialized profession like engineering, you’ll probably use it, but if you only take a regular job, you probably wouldn’t…”
“Eh…! Is that how it is…?
Shijoin-san’s eyes widened as she learned the shocking truth.
“Why in the world do we have to learn this stuff…and not even have the opportunity to use it after we go out into society after all the hard work we put in?”
Well, we all think about that at some point, don’t we? Especially in mathematics and ancient writing. When it came to Chinese writing, I thought it was a practice of deciphering codes.
“Well, to put it bluntly, it’s for your academic career and entrance exams, but if you ask me what the point of it is, I think it’s to learn more about yourself. If you learn a lot of things, regardless of whether they are practical for the future or not, you’ll know which fields are suitable for you, and it will be easier to decide which direction to take in the future.”
“That’s true…I certainly can’t be an accountant or a programmer.”
She nodded her head in deep agreement with my matter-of-fact argument.
She’s so humble….
By the way, I’m talking big. But when I was in high school in my previous life, I was generally bad at studying and couldn’t tell my aptitudes in any way.
Looking at it now, it pains me to realize that I wasted all the money my mom gave me to pay tuition with.
“And well, since this is a high school, we’re here because we took the entrance exam, paid the tuition, and wanted to get a higher level of education than middle school.”
“I nearly forgot that we’re not obligated to go to school, but rather we’re here because we want to… “
Well, you don’t have to drop your shoulders so much, Shijoin-san.
It’s probably because most high school students forget that part a lot.
“Haha, I often forget that…mm… “
Suddenly, I felt sleepy, as if my head was being covered by fog.
Although I tried to get a decent amount of sleep, it was still hard for me to balance my studies and tutoring.
“Um, Nihama-kun, aren’t you feeling tired?”
“Oh, no, not at all!”
Shijoin-san gave me a worried look, but I immediately smiled and showed my vitality.
I don’t want to show my tired figure to the person I admire.
“But…it seems that you’ve been very tired lately.”
“Uh, that’s …”
I’m trying to win against Mitsurugi in the match he one-sidedly decided to create, but I haven’t told Shijoin-san about it yet.
Originally, in order to be free from the light novels ban imposed by her father, Shijoin-san worked hard to prepare for the final exam.
And in the midst of it, I decided that it was unnecessary to tell her that a guy named Mitsurugi is obsessed with her and saw me as an enemy. So he challenged me to a game, and if I lost, I’d be forbidden from approaching Shijoin-san again.
Of course, if I lost in the game, and Mitsurugi made a fuss about it, I would tell her everything. But…I want to wait at least until the end of the final exam.
“Well, it’s just a matter of finishing up, and if teaching me is becoming too much of a burden for you, we can end this study session if you want…”
“No, I’m totally fine! You don’t have to call it quits by all means!”
I desperately pleaded to Shijoin-san, who looked at me with concern.
This study session, which I started as a way to prepare Shijoin-san for the final exam, was not a burden by any means, but rather a supreme pleasure for me because it was an important time when I could be together with the person I yearned for.
But that’s not the only reason for me to continue the study session until the end.
“I’m…not…mm…”
However, I think I need to rest a little. My head was somewhat dizzy from sleepiness, and I was beginning to lose my consciousness …
“…please let me continue…Shijoin-san…”
“Eh…?”
I’m so sleepy…that I can’t control my consciousness and my words right now…probably because my blood sugar level went up after eating a snack earlier.
“I…never been good at…studying, and I haven’t put in…any effort since I started…high school.”
My sleep-deprived mind speaks on its own in a hazy state of consciousness.
Oh yeah…the price of that slacking…led to such a terrible future …
“I tried to change myself… and worked hard at my studies…and the praise that Shijoin-san gave me…really touched my heart…”
Yes…that’s right…
The first person who always praised my changes and efforts was…Shijoin-san.
“And I want to teach you to my own accord, because…you relied on me, you acknowledged me…It makes me so happy that I cried…so at the very least I want to live up to that trust…… “
“Nihama-kun…”
I’m so sleepy.
I’m so sleepy that my head doesn’t work well.
“Besides…this time where I can study together with Shijoin-san is very important for me…and I want it to continue as long as possible…”
“Eh–”
“Huh…–?”
My consciousness drifted off for a second!
(Crap, after showing her that I’m fine, I dozed off for a second! Shijoin-san will only get more worried about my exhaustion!)
“Sorry, sorry, I was in kind of a daze! Now let’s resume our studies…?”
I hurriedly called out to her, but for some reason, Shijoin-san froze with a shocked expression on her face.
What is it? I’m having trouble remembering what happened just before I almost fell asleep, did my brain, diluted by sleep, say something strange?
“Well, Shijoin-san, …?”
“Eh, yes, …”
“Are you feeling unwell, Shijoin-san? Your cheeks are slightly flushed…”
“Eh…yes…I don’t even have a cold, but my cheeks are somehow warm. What’s wrong with me…?”
Shijoin-san caressed her own cheek in curiosity.
“Hmmm, I’m glad that you thought that way about this study session, which began because of my selfish request …”
I almost fell asleep, and for some reason, Shijoin-san seemed to be very happy about what I said.
“I’m glad…I’m not the only one who wants this time to last forever.”
“Eh……?”
The girl with the long black hair told me that innocently with her usual cheerful smile.
This time, I was frozen by her words, which came out from her mouth naturally.
“Then again…I’ll be counting on you from now on! Sensei.”
“Ah, yes! It’s my pleasure!”
I smiled back at Shijoin-san, who gave me a motivating and vibrant smile.
Yeah, absolutely…I want this time to go on forever.
